Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Womanhood is a war and a gift. Thank god for it. Also, @movifiedbollywood, thank you so much for the award “Best Debutante (Series)” – extremely grateful. ❤️ @abeemanyousee made me look stunning as per usual.
Recovery dump
Recovery dump
Recovery dump
Recovery dump
Recovery dump
What if I told you I find the left as beautiful as the right, dorsal hump, superciliary arches, glabella, chin, acne scars, stubble included? What if I told you it was never about “beauty” at all? If I didn’t consider my former face beautiful, I wouldn’t celebrate it in a hundred odd photos and it wouldn’t feature on your screens. Gender affirmation and the pursuit of beauty aren’t mutually exclusive but there is a distinction there. 🙂 While no gender affirming procedure can ever be proof of your spirit and identity, FFS is something I’ve known many of my trans sisters to undergo, from full time activists to models and designers. It’s not as uncommon as you think. According to the National Transgender Discrimination Survey Report on Health and Health Care, at least 80% of transgender people have either taken HRT/GAHT (hormone therapy) or want to at some point, and surgery prevalence according to various sources is anywhere between 30-50%. We don’t currently have solid data in the country, but access to gender affirming care in any form – from dermatology, psychotherapy, endocrinology, to reconstructive surgery – is severely lacking. If you’re a doctor that practises in any of these branches, I urge you to look into transgender medicine and how you could contribute. It would save us a ton of money and resources and improve access. From the kind of work I see across the world, there’s most certainly a market for it in a country as large as ours, also opening doors to trans medical tourism. The more you know. x
Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway. 📸 @abeemanyousee
Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway. 📸 @abeemanyousee
Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway. 📸 @abeemanyousee
Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway. 📸 @abeemanyousee
Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway. 📸 @abeemanyousee
8th April 2024 – FFS – facial feminisation surgery | spain wasn’t just a vacation | chaotic sketches and diary entries on opioids Facial Feminisation Surgery (FFS) is one of many interventions a trans person may undergo to feel more alignment between body and gender identity. Other gender affirming interventions may include gender affirming hormone therapy (GAHT/HRT), gender affirming genital surgery, etc. My transition is complete. I didn’t think this final step would happen anytime soon, but it has. I did this by myself, for myself, and still can’t believe it. Transition to me is deeply spiritual, and not the stuff of tabloids and speculative nonsense. I haven’t talked about wanting FFS at all mostly out of fear of public scrutiny and judgement, but why shy away from something so important in this journey of accessing myself? Who cares what anybody thinks or believes, really? Truth be told, I’ve wanted this for a decade, and there were lots of reasons to wait. I ticked them all off one by one. An actor was recently trolled into sheepishly admitting he had chin filler, and a topper was trolled for (not doing anything about) her facial hair in the face of obvious academic merit. Screwed if you do, screwed if you don’t, clearly. There is only this one body, this one life. If there is gender dysphoria, it has to be dealt with. I’ve lost count of how many people in the industry I’ve met who’ve had work done and will deny intervention. To each their own, but I do not wish to contribute to a culture of opacity that thrives on making masses of young people insecure. I have no interest in promoting bodily intervention, but I do believe in transparency, as has always been the case, especially as a doctor. My reasons were gender affirmation and confidence therefrom, as extensively deliberated on over years of therapy. Others may have their own. Doing this alone hasn’t been easy, but my god, I’m convinced I’m fucking invincible.
