Trinetra Haldar Gummaraju Instagram – Tomorrow marks six weeks post FFS. These few weeks have been beyond difficult for obvious reasons. You study inflammation and its stages, you study how the brain must now adjust to new features, how you must now re-train muscle against new surfaces of bone. The mirror has been a nightmare. That said, no textbook prepares you for the feeling of walking past it and suddenly seeing glimmers of innocence you could never access growing up. It’s overwhelming beyond belief to see a childlike quality in your eyes as the bruising underneath fades, as the swelling disappears. I never got to be a “little girl”, and I see her suddenly, what she might’ve looked like when young and free, uninhibited and wild. I can almost imagine what she looked like in school, or in her mother’s arms, receiving every bit of affirmation and care she deserved. I’ve chased that feeling forever, as if hoping to find it in a hobby or a person, never quite finding it right here, within. I have it now, I think, some of it anyway.
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