Amanda Palmer Instagram – This is the first time in my life I’ve sat down to have a birthday party while somewhere across the earth, I missed a funeral for a dear friend. At 6pm we laid the table and Ash picked flowers and helped decorated the cake, while somewhere on Palm Beach on Waiheke in Tomorrowland, @danikacharity read the poem I wrote today for Bianca…while everyone over paid their respects to her body. Her life. This is the first time I’ve sat down on a birthday to pen a poem for a death day. There’s a first for everything. This night. These people. Flowers came from afar. I was surrounded by so much love, and the love feels that much more infinite and rich in contrast with the gaping landscapes that are blurry and ragged around the edges. The missing. In death we live. In loss we find our alive. In dark we light. I feel more will to mother knowing that Bianca, right now, cannot. I have never been more grateful for my friends, my loved ones, my lover, my bath soaps, my bedside pens and pencils, my ability to write a poem, my son and his laughter, the blood coursing through my warm hands. My friends. My friends. My friends. Hold your loved ones close tonight. My god, it’s all so fucking brief. To all few hundred of you who joined the Patreon togay, welcome to the family. It’s a good one. Good night. I’ll never feel a day like this again on earth. ♥️🥀