Emily Kokal Instagram – RADIATE LIKE THIS
5.6.22
To be honest, I am still processing the experience of making this album. I was newly pregnant writing and studio w the girls until our baby’s birth (born the day LA shut down) into pandemic times and working from home up until she was two, far from my mates usually and in a totally new world on every level.
It was full of some of the most beauty we’ve had making a record. Full of light. Some of our best and most considered (lolll)
And then there was the loneliness. The tiredness. The pressure to fiiiiiinish in really uncertain times in really new circumstances.
The balance of being with your baby and being with your work. Something so new it seemed like an impossibility to ever feel rightness trying to thrive in both. The self doubt doing things alone in my room, like I’m sure we all felt when we went to work separated with the intention to make it whole and complete and speak for all of us. The push to make assets and posts and content and ‘sell our brand’ which didn’t come naturally for us at this time. Especially stretched out all over the world and even in different time zones. Trying to make it come together like we can so effortlessly a lot of the time when we are together. And the feeling when it came out like it kind of just floated out into the ether it came from back into itself and disappeared.
But then we had you all. And we had the nature of the making and the ‘releasing’. The baby was finally born.
And even if one person connected or felt or needed or anything… the letting go and allowing it to be what it is. An expression. And a gift to be able to give.
It’s a whole thang. An alchemical process. A death and rebirth. A cycle. And I wouldn’t change it. We are lucky to do it. Even tho it hurt like hell, it healed. Thank you.
To babies x
(and Jenny Stella and T and all the midwives) | Posted on 07/May/2023 08:01:57
