Jamie Otis Instagram – Today I’m 17 weeks & 1 day pregnant w these twins, which is the exact same time I birthed & said goodbye to our first son, Johnathan😔👼💙 I was saying to Doug this morning that it’s an odd feeling knowing exactly how big our babies are inside me … I don’t need fruit comparisons to tell me bc I delivered & held our first baby at this exact time.🤰 I remember very clearly how big (small, really) his precious, perfectly formed hands and feet were…& how delicate his skin was while I held him and kissed him before they took him away from me.👼 These twin baby boys are the same exact size now as he was then.👶👶 Doug & I talked about how BLESSED we are to know these twins are safe and sound inside me. I’ve had ZERO complications with this pregnancy. And the blood test confirmed they’re LOW RISK!🙌🥹 Thank God!🙏💙🙏💙 We are *so thankful* that we got a chance to see our Johnathan and hold him for a short while…my heart will forever be broken and a piece of it will always be missing bc he took it to heaven with him.👼 But, I’m *so grateful* I got to love on him & talk to him before he left us. I know he’s our guardian angel & watches over Henley and Hendrix—and he had a hand in sending us 2 more perfect baby boys.🙏🌈👶👶 When I held him I whispered in his ear & promised him that no matter what I’d spend the rest of my life honoring his short one.💯 Johnathan, I hope you feel loved and honored all the way up in heaven today! Your mommy, daddy, little sis and brothers all love you so much! Thank you for keeping watch over us! … until we meet again sweet baby boy.🙏🌈👼💙 #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #infantloss #infertility #infertilityawareness #rainbowbaby #pregnancyafterloss