Katie Carpenter Instagram – Breastfeeding is not as easy as I thought.
‘You just whip your boob out, right?’ 😝
But it’s more complex.
Finding comfy positions for both of us 8 times a day. Wondering if I’m dehydrated as I feel liquid being sucked out of me. Trying to remember how much protein I ate today. Wanting to wear that dress but I can’t, because I can’t feed her in that. Feeling people’s eyes on me as I feed her in public. Feeling people AVOID looking at me when I’m feeding her. Wondering HOW somehow she’s able to bite with no teeth???! 🫣
Worried about my supply dipping, especially around my cycle. Wanting to make plans but knowing I can’t be gone for too long, cause I gotta pump.
Feeling the responsibility and pride of being able to feed and comfort her at the same time.
Seeing her eyes look up at me and knowing how close we are in that moment.
And the overwhelming urge to quit sometimes because it would be seemingly easier, but knowing once I’m done, I can’t go back.
But now we’re arriving at the first mini-goal. 6 months. 6 months of nothing but boob juice. And I feel almost a little selfish that I’m excited for her to start food, but resentful. How will I know whether that new lock of hair was because of me or a sweet potato?
Am I wrong to feel this way?
I grew her. She was built in my tummy and from my body. Just me. A blessing and a sacrifice.
This is motherhood, isn’t it? The heartbreaking happiness of growth. 🥹 We’re still pretty fresh to all this, but what a journey it’s been.
I hope to keep going. A year? We’ll see.
Shoutout to all the mamas who chose to/were able to do this for their babies. 🫶🏻 We are life-bringers, caretakers, and warriors. #breastfeedingmom #breastfedbaby #ftm | Posted on 21/Apr/2024 22:35:02
