I’ve been wondering why I’ve been feeling so “off” the past few days (other than the never ending pain and suffering of a world on fire). And then I remember – – It was around this time last year that I had my fourth miscarriage. And my body remembers. My cells remember. And that makes me realize that this likely happens three other times per year. The times I feel extra “emotional” or “lonely”. Or my body aches a little more. Feels a little more foreign. I cry more easily and more often.
There is no cut off point for grief. It is not linear or finite. Everyone does it differently. There is no “right way”. I’m making peace with the idea that my grief might never be gone. Quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) sitting next to me. And so we learn to sit side by side.
It gets me thinking about postpartum depression and anxiety. And how we associate it primarily with new motherhood, if we acknowledge it at all. But mine is often there. Tapping me on the shoulder. Whispering in my ear. It’s smaller now, but it too might never be “gone”.
So the three of us sit together – on the same bench as joy, fear, curiosity, anger, contentment, resentment, gratitude and love.
And we hold hands.
Thank you, @paulwontorek for unearthing this moment. This young woman didn’t fully understand how lucky she was, how many things she would overcome, and how many angels would help walk her through this beautiful, bittersweet, all too brief life. My gratitude is immeasurable, my love is boundless. My heart has truly been blessed.
The middle-aged are at the gates! @laurabenanti is marching across Broadway to promote her solo comedy show NOBODY CARES! Next is the cast of @suffsmusical. Head to the link in @playbill’s bio to learn more about Laura’s show at the Minetta Lane Theatre.
Uncle @nickypumpkin and Aunt @chlohair had an epic wedding weekend AND Ella got to fulfill her lifelong dream of going to Disney World. Thank you @DisneyParks/@WaltDisneyWorld for the absolutely magical and unforgettable family memories and for making Ella feel like “maybe she’s not too old to wear princess dresses after all”. 😭 💫 🪄#WaltDisneyWorld
Hear what critics are saying about LAURA BENANTI: NOBODY CARES performances begin May 9th…link to tickets in bio
I went into labor around 5am on February 11th, 2017 and Ella was born at 3:30pm on February 14th. Nothing will ever convince me that she didn’t hold out for so long because she wanted to be born on the same day as her Grandfather. Happy Birthday to the man who gently raised a lion in all my strength and wildness and is always guiding me to do the same for mine, his birthday blessing. Happy Birthday Grandpa and Ella Rose 🌹
Nobody Cares: Laura’s Version
Get your tickets to Laura Benanti’s comedy show, #NobodyCares, beginning performances on May 9 at The Minetta Lane Theatre! 🎟️
Sisters…
@laurabenanti is hittin’ the pavement and telling all of Broadway that her solo comedy show NOBODY CARES is back! First up is @celiakb backstage at @2stnyc’s Mother Play. Head to the link in @playbill’s bio to learn more about Laura’s show at the Minetta Lane Theatre.
A few of my favorite things…
7 days, 6 shows, 5 flights, 4 show outfits, 3 cities, 2 heavy suitcases, 1 heckler.
In our house every day is Saint Patrick’s Day. We love you! 😇
I’m thrilled to unveil the new look of my website, a project that’s been brewing for a while! Collaborating with Sarah @damestudios was a fantastic decision – her commitment and collaborative nature really set her apart. A heartfelt thanks to her for bringing this vision to life ♥️. You can see the results for yourself at www.laurabenanti.com or by following the link in my bio.
What a magical week at @waltdisneyworld with our beautiful girls and then the gorgeous wedding of @nickypumpkin and @chlohair surrounded by friends and family.
Laura Benanti’s solo comedy show #NobodyCares is a @nytimes critic pick! You only have until June 2nd to see the show — Get tickets today at the link in bio! 🎟️
And you should see my lasagna.
@laurabenanti went back to where it all began at the St. James Theater and met up with some old friends to promote her solo comedy show, NOBODY CARES! Head to the link in our bio to learn more about Laura’s show at the Minetta Lane Theater, in performances through June 2nd.
Only 8 more chances to catch me in my solo comedy show #NobodyCares! I’m proud to have written the show in my makeshift office/garage while my children yelled at me for snacks. Proud to have written the music with my friend of 20 years and musical husband @therealtoddalmond. Reminder, don’t bring children under 16 or they will be scarred, emotionally.
Get your tickets to this @nyttimes critics pick at the link in bio! 💅
Calling all young people! You have a lot to look forward to. xx
link to tickets in bio ✨
Thank you to all my friends and family who came out and showed me how much they care! Thank you to our tremendous audiences! Thank you @audibletheater for making this possible and for giving me so much freedom! Thank you to my friend and collaborator of 20 years, @therealtoddalmond and our brilliant director @amaginnis
Come see our show! I think you’ll like it!! Now running through June 2nd. Link to tickets in bio!
💁🏻♀️: @voelhair
💄: @mikeyclifton
👗: @jakesokoloff
Photos by Bruce Glikas @bruglikas @broadwaybruce_
Thank you to all my friends and family who came out and showed me how much they care! Thank you to our tremendous audiences! Thank you @audibletheater for making this possible and for giving me so much freedom! Thank you to my friend and collaborator of 20 years, @therealtoddalmond and our brilliant director @amaginnis
Come see our show! I think you’ll like it!! Now running through June 2nd. Link to tickets in bio!
💁🏻♀️: @voelhair
💄: @mikeyclifton
👗: @jakesokoloff
Photos by Bruce Glikas @bruglikas @broadwaybruce_
Thank you to all my friends and family who came out and showed me how much they care! Thank you to our tremendous audiences! Thank you @audibletheater for making this possible and for giving me so much freedom! Thank you to my friend and collaborator of 20 years, @therealtoddalmond and our brilliant director @amaginnis
Come see our show! I think you’ll like it!! Now running through June 2nd. Link to tickets in bio!
💁🏻♀️: @voelhair
💄: @mikeyclifton
👗: @jakesokoloff
Photos by Bruce Glikas @bruglikas @broadwaybruce_
Thank you to all my friends and family who came out and showed me how much they care! Thank you to our tremendous audiences! Thank you @audibletheater for making this possible and for giving me so much freedom! Thank you to my friend and collaborator of 20 years, @therealtoddalmond and our brilliant director @amaginnis
Come see our show! I think you’ll like it!! Now running through June 2nd. Link to tickets in bio!
💁🏻♀️: @voelhair
💄: @mikeyclifton
👗: @jakesokoloff
Photos by Bruce Glikas @bruglikas @broadwaybruce_
Thank you to all my friends and family who came out and showed me how much they care! Thank you to our tremendous audiences! Thank you @audibletheater for making this possible and for giving me so much freedom! Thank you to my friend and collaborator of 20 years, @therealtoddalmond and our brilliant director @amaginnis
Come see our show! I think you’ll like it!! Now running through June 2nd. Link to tickets in bio!
💁🏻♀️: @voelhair
💄: @mikeyclifton
👗: @jakesokoloff
Photos by Bruce Glikas @bruglikas @broadwaybruce_
