Ellie Taylor Instagram – My egg is six months old.
This is the point I’m meant to write,
“Six months of knowing you, baby! Six months of joy!”, then bugger off to sweetly wash some baby clothes aided by woodland creatures.
But that would be like swiping a verbal Paris filter over the last half a year.
The truth is more:
“Six months of knowing you, baby! Six months of joy! But also six months of losing myself. But also six months of a generic newborn face morphing slowly into a delicious gummy smile. But also six months of awful nights, climbing inside your cot in the dark, both of us crying. But also six months of magical moments where hope peeks out from the clouds in my brainbox. But also six months of worrying about your darling sister. But also six months of watching you adore her, as she puts on another show for your greedy eyeballs. Six months of ‘What have I done?’ But also six months of ‘Look what I have!’ Six months of LIFE my darling boy, for all of us. Life in all its brilliant, precious, gruelling, contradictory richness.”
Not to sound like an inspirational parenting fridge magnet, but it’s ok not to love it all. It’s ok to find it unbearably hard and feel like everyone else seems to find it easier than you.
Essentially, what I’m saying is, the baby bit can be bloody dogshit and you’re not an awful person if you’d like to fast forward to when they can tell you what they want in their sandwich. 🥪
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