When I was 17, I started treatment for an eating disorder. The decision to do so wasn’t mine – it was one that was made for me by the closest people in my life. I wasn’t at the point where help was what I wanted. I was so deep underwater, in a dark reality I had fully accepted: that being isolated, withdrawn, a shell of the person I was, was what my life now looked like. I felt protected by the walls I’d built around me, a slave to laws of my own invention. I have vivid memories of the genuine confusion I felt looking in the mirror and seeing nothing at all. No Meaghan, no woman, no human, no ‘me’. Just a something. A shapeless form holding up a head. I had erased any feelings other than this. My ED was all I had.
I am so proud of what I overcame. And yet, for years, the pride I felt was drowned out by shame. It took me a really long time to sort through why I wasn’t celebrating my recovery- why one of my biggest accomplishments still felt like something I wasn’t supposed to talk about. Why I still felt embarrassed about this life that I fought for with more determination and grit than I even knew I had. I navigated my way out of a world of secrets only to continue to keep them just as closely after I escaped. In fact, while this part of my story is something I’m now very open about in my personal life, this is the first time I’ve ever shared it publicly. My treatment saved my life. 20 years later, I still can’t believe what it did for me. How fortunate I was that I had access to the care I needed. And so many don’t. In the US, 30 million ppl are suffering with an ED. Despite this prevalence, less than 20% ever receive treatment. Project HEAL aims to breakdown systemic, healthcare & financial barriers to ED healing so that those who are suffering have access to the treatment that they deserve. My BFF @amandacrew & I have these journeys in common. For our gemini birthdays we’ve decided to partner with @ProjectHeal & raise money to help EVERYONE get access to the help they need. I’ll be matching all donations up to $3k! Donate $500 & win a Zoom chat with me. Or enter a raffle to win a signed head shot. $50 = 1 ticket. Link in my bio to donate. Thank you so much🤍
Obsessed with @manfredbaumann ‘s ridiculously talented eye 🤍 (equally obsessed with @nellybaumann ‘s makeup without which I’d look more like an old mop)
✨5-16-2020✨
3 years in and I still can’t believe how much I love you @jackcutmorescott 💙
2023 pt 2
English country side with Boris, the kids in CRE are actually played by adults, Norfolk beaches, Lanai with #2, reunited with my girls, Chateau Marmont in Bumpsuit, babyshower, with Guppy, en route to 2024
2023 pt 2
English country side with Boris, the kids in CRE are actually played by adults, Norfolk beaches, Lanai with #2, reunited with my girls, Chateau Marmont in Bumpsuit, babyshower, with Guppy, en route to 2024
2023 pt 2
English country side with Boris, the kids in CRE are actually played by adults, Norfolk beaches, Lanai with #2, reunited with my girls, Chateau Marmont in Bumpsuit, babyshower, with Guppy, en route to 2024
2023 pt 2
English country side with Boris, the kids in CRE are actually played by adults, Norfolk beaches, Lanai with #2, reunited with my girls, Chateau Marmont in Bumpsuit, babyshower, with Guppy, en route to 2024
This Tuesday, 9pm on FOX! Some of the most challenging turtleneck work I’ve ever done!
Still basking in the warmth of last night! Thank you so much @thecdnacademy. I feel just so lucky to make this show, and so grateful to all the people behind the scenes, who work tirelessly to make it something really, really special. Getting to play this character has truly been one of the best parts about being a human woman, for me!
Happy Valentine’s Day to my one true forever home💙
Hey hey, Ho Ho, Corporate greed has got to go! ✊🏽 @sagaftra
Hey hey, Ho Ho, Corporate greed has got to go! ✊🏽 @sagaftra
Hey hey, Ho Ho, Corporate greed has got to go! ✊🏽 @sagaftra
Hey hey, Ho Ho, Corporate greed has got to go! ✊🏽 @sagaftra
Next Tuesday at 9pm on FOX! Had such a great (and intense) time shooting this, can’t wait for you all to see! Cast and crew were a dream @chrisgorham @mr_wungati 🤍
Happy Father’s to all the daddies, big and small, but especially to Jack, who gives it all meaning💙
Nap of the year 🏆
Don’t miss it tonight! 9pm on FOX!
England! 🇬🇧
Thank you so much @thecdnacademy for our 6 nominations! I am so so proud of this show and this team, and ready to celebrate from now til the end of time.
Thank you so much @thecdnacademy for our 6 nominations! I am so so proud of this show and this team, and ready to celebrate from now til the end of time.
Thank you so much @thecdnacademy for our 6 nominations! I am so so proud of this show and this team, and ready to celebrate from now til the end of time.
Disaster always strikes in threes. #ChildrenRuinEverything season 3 is now streaming free!
