Dina Deleasa Instagram – When I had Siena I had no time to prep, her room wasn’t ready, my hospital bag wasn’t packed, no freezer meals, just the unfolding of an emergency c-section. This time I had the diagnosis, the date , and weeks in the waiting.
The more I tired to plan the more anxious I became, it wasn’t working. I couldn’t see past past the surgery, make too many plans because they kept changing or falling through. So I decided to focus on what God had in-front of me . Day to day, week to week, not to let the future I couldn’t control rob me of what was good in the present. So I celebrated the end of Sienas school year, showers and bachelorette parties that had me spending more time with family. Instead of worrying about how my work will suffer, will I lose or be set far back again? I kept working on the one project I say I have been gifted at the moment, kept recipe testing. I have some wonderful friends that make sure I keep going. I am recalling what God has done before instead of worrying. He will redeem my time and take whatever it is I create in his name where it needs to go. No cancer , no surgery and etc can change that. I had been praying for him to stretch my faith and boldness, okay, this is not what I had in mind. But I’ll take it, as crazy as it sounds. I believe going through this widens my heart, deepens my faith. I will cast a wider net and be more prepared for the people I encounter within it. I looking forward to how he works through me here, not dwelling on circumstances beyond my control.
So I changed my prep style. I decided to hide his word in my heart. Because as I go into the surgery room with seemingly nothing of my own, or no one , I realize how not alone I am. I was wishing I could carry a piece of paper wit me at one point. But it’s not necessary, I realize he is carrying me and what a joy to know of the family, friends and church that prays for me at that exact moment . I know not everyone has that.
💕Are you prepping for something hard? Are you worried about a future you can’t control? Drop your name below, I’ll pray for you! Bc when I wake up in that hospital room and I have time to myself , I would love the task of lifting up someone else . | Posted on 23/Jun/2023 05:14:00
