Bethany C. Meyers Instagram – One of the strangest things about moving to a new state while simultaneously closing @thebecomeproject (not to mention watching my online following slowly turn over from fitness fans to parenting peeps) is “losing” that piece of my identity. I put losing in quotes because I haven’t actually lost it, it will always be a part of me, but for the first time in a very long time, it’s not my primary identifier. And it’s a bizarre transition.
The other day while at the library for kids hour, someone asked me what I do. I awkwardly laughed trying to figure out how to answer the question without my old go-to line. I word vomited a slew of things that didn’t make much sense and was met with a blank stare. “I asked when you are due” they said. “Ohhhh October 12th” I sheepishly replied.
I started teaching fitness, managing studios and training instructors as a career almost right out of college. I conquered that world quite successfully and became well-known in my field before coming to the realization that it was no longer serving me. And to be honest, it often hurts to no longer be recognized for that.
Someone here recently commented that they wish they had my life, beach every day no schedule, no hours. I *think* they were being nice but it didn’t feel that way. Full time mom-ing IS work. I have a toddler so no hours are “mine”. And, even though they haven’t launched yet, I have new projects in the works and no, I sadly don’t go to the beach everyday.
I bet one of you can articulate this better than I can but there is such a need as a mother to constantly prove you are both the best at being a mom AND the best at being a business person. As though those two identities MUST go hand in hand.
I pulled out one of my old @thebecomeproject routines yesterday and actually stopped halfway through being like damnnn this is good! And not to turn this post into a sales pitch but I still have my collection of routines available for purchase online (link in bio). I’m so proud of that work, body neutral fitness that caters to so many levels.
I don’t know how this post ends. Just that that is still me and this is still me and I’m still figuring it all out. And that’s okay | Posted on 23/Jul/2024 23:41:18
