Aja Instagram – To my cherished supporters,
As I see the vibrant photos and joyful faces from DragCon, a deep sense of longing wells up within me. I yearn to be there, amidst the glitter and glam, surrounded by the energy and love that only such a space can bring. I miss it all profoundly. I miss the electrifying meet and greets, the comfort of being home every few months, the certainty of tomorrow’s meal. Each glimpse of joy and celebration stirs a fire in me, pushing me to work ten times harder to reclaim my place.
Witnessing the collaborations, the Love Ball, and other breathtaking shows ignites a spark in my heart. That’s where I aspire to be once more, basking in the glory of the stage, a Drag superstar in my element.
The past six years have been a tumultuous journey. My biggest regret is the public unraveling of my struggles with gender identity and the hasty declarations about quitting drag. That news spread like wildfire, casting shadows that I still struggle to escape. Growing up in the hood instilled in me a fierce defensiveness, and I handled situations poorly. But I was young, just 24 when these revelations began. I was 26 when I stepped away from drag, 27 when I began my transition. Now at 30, I marvel at how swiftly time has flown.
Yet, in finding and accepting myself, in rediscovering my love for the art of drag, the news was met with silence, not the celebration I had hoped for. I feel like I have stumbled terribly, and my stubborn nature has only compounded my mistakes. I am human, flawed and earnest, and it feels as though I am constantly paying for my past. I wish the journey to authenticity didn’t come with such a heavy price.
I adore the life I’ve curated, but my soul yearns to be a drag superstar again, to perform, to feel the heat of the spotlight, and to travel the world. I miss it all so much. In my heart, I remain vulnerable and transparent with you, my supporters. I will forever be sorry for any words or actions that pushed you away. If I could, I would have navigated my struggles differently. Until then, all I can do is hope for a brighter, more understanding future.
💛 | Posted on 21/Jul/2024 20:41:55
