A huge thank you to my friends for helping me get dressed up to support @dawestheband at last night’s Grammys. My mind is in a million different places right now but I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. @barbdoeshair, @debraferullomakeup, and @ecduzit- you ladies are magic. Thanks for making me feel my very best. And thanks to the greatest ever (Cece, Andrea and Ana) for watching the kids so I could be there in person. Styling @ecduzit Hair @barbdoeshair Makeup @debraferullomakeup Dress and shoes @stellamccartney Jewelry @anitakojewelry Hottest date @taylordawesgoldsmith ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
A huge thank you to my friends for helping me get dressed up to support @dawestheband at last night’s Grammys. My mind is in a million different places right now but I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. @barbdoeshair, @debraferullomakeup, and @ecduzit- you ladies are magic. Thanks for making me feel my very best. And thanks to the greatest ever (Cece, Andrea and Ana) for watching the kids so I could be there in person. Styling @ecduzit Hair @barbdoeshair Makeup @debraferullomakeup Dress and shoes @stellamccartney Jewelry @anitakojewelry Hottest date @taylordawesgoldsmith ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
A huge thank you to my friends for helping me get dressed up to support @dawestheband at last night’s Grammys. My mind is in a million different places right now but I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. @barbdoeshair, @debraferullomakeup, and @ecduzit- you ladies are magic. Thanks for making me feel my very best. And thanks to the greatest ever (Cece, Andrea and Ana) for watching the kids so I could be there in person. Styling @ecduzit Hair @barbdoeshair Makeup @debraferullomakeup Dress and shoes @stellamccartney Jewelry @anitakojewelry Hottest date @taylordawesgoldsmith ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
A huge thank you to my friends for helping me get dressed up to support @dawestheband at last night’s Grammys. My mind is in a million different places right now but I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. @barbdoeshair, @debraferullomakeup, and @ecduzit- you ladies are magic. Thanks for making me feel my very best. And thanks to the greatest ever (Cece, Andrea and Ana) for watching the kids so I could be there in person. Styling @ecduzit Hair @barbdoeshair Makeup @debraferullomakeup Dress and shoes @stellamccartney Jewelry @anitakojewelry Hottest date @taylordawesgoldsmith ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
A huge thank you to my friends for helping me get dressed up to support @dawestheband at last night’s Grammys. My mind is in a million different places right now but I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. @barbdoeshair, @debraferullomakeup, and @ecduzit- you ladies are magic. Thanks for making me feel my very best. And thanks to the greatest ever (Cece, Andrea and Ana) for watching the kids so I could be there in person. Styling @ecduzit Hair @barbdoeshair Makeup @debraferullomakeup Dress and shoes @stellamccartney Jewelry @anitakojewelry Hottest date @taylordawesgoldsmith ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
We never got an evacuation notice. Sometimes in the quieter moments of processing the last month, I play the game of what would have happened if I didn’t have my phone next to me, playing my typical “piano for deep sleep” mix as I nursed Lou before bed, so I could answer the call from my brother-in-law? It was 6:45 p.m. and he told me he, his wife, and our niece were evacuating, grabbing my in-laws (his parents) and getting the heck out of Dodge and we should do the same. I calmly walked downstairs and relayed this to my husband and without skipping a beat, we promptly packed up the kids (in their pjs), our dog, and scrambled to find our 3 cats as the power went out. I’ll never forget Taylor trying to figure out how to manually open our two little garage doors (they’d just finished construction around Thanksgiving and we’d just started using them—) in the harrowing 60 mph winds, as the sky glowed a dark red and ash started to fall all around us. We raced across town amidst fallen trees on the freeway to the safety of our dear friend’s place, got the kids down, and then I raced to Target to grab a litter box and some water, impulsively refreshing the watch duty app over and over. As we did all night. Over and over. Watching the evacuation zone narrow in on our little 8-block radius. It took until 4 a.m. for it to turn red. All the while, tossing and turning with a stomach-churning anxiety I’ve never experienced before, both boys passed out between us in bed. Lou slept on the floor in a travel crib, and the dog curled up protectively by the door. Continued in comments….
My sweet LouLou Bean. Hold tight to your loved ones, friends. Love you, LA.
Now that the adrenaline has subsided, reality has a sharper focus and the anxiety manages to nestle in nightly. I’m trying my best to be present for them. I’m failing a lot of the time, tucked into my phone answering impossible questions, trying to keep the ship afloat while swimming in a pool of grief. With a shorter fuse. This pain and unease is unmooring. My family. My friends. My community. I drove back today for a doctor’s appointment for Lou and just kept repeating, “Oh My God”, over and over as I choked back sobs. I know I’ll have more to say down the road but I don’t have the bandwidth right now. There’s a definitive line that has left an indelible mark on my life but somehow these guys think we’re on the best adventure and I intend to keep it that way. Here’s Goosey keeping his sister entertained. 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
These last few weeks have been an unfathomable blur of all of the emotions. I’ve never held such immense gratitude coupled with unspeakable grief at the same time. In the midst of so much darkness and uncertainty, seeing @dawestheband open THE GRAMMYS and get to share their heart, spirit, musicality and DEEP love for this city of ours with the world at large, it just makes me want to burst. No one is more deserving of this moment than Griff and Taylor. And they met the moment—I say that as a fan, not just a wife. Sharing tonight with my gorgeous sister in law, @quintessentiallykit (who had a baby a week ago- seriously who can get it together and show up looking this stunning after all they’ve been through) was also intensely special. Also @sherylcrow @bradpaisley @st_vincent @johnlegend @blackfootwhitefoot—-What a night!! Thanks for a forever memory, @recordingacademy!! I love you and am your biggest fan @taylordawesgoldsmith. We 🩷 LA!!
Yesterday, my brother-in-law and sister-in-law Griff & Kit lost their home and everything they own in the Eaton Fire. With their first baby on the way in a matter of weeks, they need our support now more than ever. Griff is a touring musician and also lost his entire arsenal of drums/percussion he uses to make a living. It’s all so much. So many have asked how to help during this unimaginable and stressful time…Please consider donating and sharing to help them rebuild. Link in bio and all the love…. ****And people questioning whether we’re helping out our own family or attributing some arbitrary amount of money google says someone has is NOT helpful or empathetic. Of course we are. Our buddy Matt started this go fund me and i’m sharing because people have asked how they can help them. We just lost most of our life in a fire too. Kindly F OFF. no one is forcing you to do anything.
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
Happy 4th bday to our magic boy. It is so easy to celebrate you every day, Goosey. Your smile and laugh are insanely infectious. You know every name of every dinosaur and Tom Petty lyric. You are so tender and gentle with your sister (and brother most of the time- ha). You are always concerned when someone is sick or hurt and want to make them feel better. Your curiosity about the world around you keeps us present and on our toes. And your resilience and sense of adventure these last 6 weeks have been both miraculous and a gentle reminder that everything is going to be okay as long as we’re together. I love you beyond words and am so grateful you chose me to be your mom. We will never stop feeling like the luckiest to love and be loved by you. Happy Birthday, Gus!!
