ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH! The lifelong journey of healing. Shows up in women who had to hold a lot in.Pain, heavy bleeding, adhesions- forcing oneself to take on & take in pain that doesn’t belong to you. I just saw this glorious thing on @theperiodlab she prompted “the body creates walls adhesions, just like the mind does. where are you blocking yourself from saying no and standing firm in your needs.” This has taken me a long time to learn. Goodness the self betrayal and abuse Ive internalized and would ruminate in. Those not for you benefit from this confusion. I’ve transmuted so much, but old habits die hard. A really violent illness that went undiagnosed for 20 years but caused me so much agony and turmoil. Finally had surgery fall of 2023 with Wonderful Dr Elizabeth Poynor thanks to my sister Lena. It was 4 hours long. It was on my colon, bladder and rectum. The pain would make me see stars. Throwing up every month. Sometimes couldn’t drive. the worst is how much you gaslight yourself. It’s almost like there’s no way you’re hurting this much? it definitely psychologically does something to you because it’s like you and no one around you believes the pain you’re in. The anxiety of next month. So many times I’ve ruined a costume or a good pair of jeans. In highschool my khaki uniform skirts. i learned over the last few years that endo is anger turned on yourself. You’re literally inflamed. That tracked for me. So many women are going THROUGH it okay. Be gentle with us. I am so grateful for what I’ve been able to turn around in myself over the last few years. I thank my body, I thank my husband, I thank my dear sister @ladylizzo who has taught me so much. My true health mentor. Thankful for acupuncture, clean water, protein, sauna, a calm nervous system because I’m experiencing healthy partnership and beautiful sisterhood. I’m thankful for good bloodwork and new days. Sunshine. good walks. Jumping on my mini trampoline. it’s not just one thing it’s a whole lot of things & I’m thankful we live in a time we can share & help each other! A few bloated pics, some post surgery, childhood internalizing, a good read. I love you #endometriosis
DON’T be a dingaling! Check out this EXCLUSIVE peek into Toxie’s transformation and go get tickets for THE TOXIC AVENGER – in theaters August 29. Show the f*ck up! #ImWithToxie #TheToxicAvenger #TheTrannsformationWeNeedNow #ShowTheFckUp
THIS FILM. I WEPT I WEPT I WEPT. THIS WOMAN. THIS DIRECTOR. THIS CAST. THIS DP. THIS STORY. THIS EARTH. WALTER SALLES. @oficialfernandatorres FERNANDA MONTENEGRO. RUN IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IT ALREADY OBRIGADO OBRIGADO OBRIGADO written after the deepest sigh and blood shot eyes from crying. Long live THE PAIVA’S. THE HUMAN SPIRIT 🇧🇷
The Toxic Avenger cast and crew walk the green carpet at the #SDCC. Miss the screening? See it in theaters nationwide on August 29!
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TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
TOXIC AVENGER in theatres today. I’m so proud of this strange masterpiece. It is so relevant, full of hope, embracing wonder and the irrational nature of this strange world we Share. Thank you Lloyd Kaufman, there’d be none of this without you. Thank you Macon Blair, your talent, your skill, your empathy, your genius, you having me be your JJ. While I do hope you find people who want to see this with you more than once, (I’m confident you will) I do hope by the second or third time- you read in between the humor and gore and simply consider. Consider yourself, your neighbor, traffic, prescriptions, subscriptions, animals, health, “leaders,” politics, religion, relationships, garbage, pollution all that is toxic within your garden and perhaps tend to it. I am certainly tending to mine. We shot this film the summer of 2021. My heart overflows for the wonderful people of Sofia, Bulgaria, our special crew that kept us alive and well at still the peak of one of the corona viruses, delta? I can’t remember. I embraced the solitude of being miles away from everything I knew and made my days off my own personal film/reading/exploring festival. I hung with Fellini, Bergman, Gus Van Sant, David Lynch, John Badham, Nancy Meyers, Cassavetes, Almodóvar, Hafiz poetry, Normandy crucifix of 1632 and more. I wrote every night. I ate dinner alone almost every evening. I started to become. I was avenging the toxic in my own world. To be who and where I am today, and thinking of that girl a few years ago, I am certainly my prayer. Being an artist is so exalting!
#ITWelcomeToDerry premieres October 2025 on HBO Max.
Birthed my baby and birthed myself ❤️
I have had the luxury of borrowing the Audi E Tron the last few months as we prepared for our son. Im no good at Instagram or clever captions, but I’m good at honesty. A few weeks before my son was born, I got hit by car who ran a red light as I was turning on my green light. As scary as it is to be in any kind of accident – I have never felt safer in one. Thank you @audi sincerely. #audipartner (nervous system’s all intact over here :))
