Where I’ve been. 158 days sober. Working the steps. Much work to do. (I also turned 50) #sobriety #recovery #ocd #nomagicwand #billyjensen #process #alive
Pets are life. They run and jump and flop around and have no idea what their tiny moments do to our hearts and our hope. Dogs. Cats. Lizards. Doesn’t matter. They are transformative mental health wizards. Today I’m 7 months sober. I’m a newbie still working steps and have so few answers and a long way to go. But I’ve been seeing and talking to a lot of people working dry January and thinking about going year round. If you do, get a pet. When you lose alcohol or drugs, you lose the thing you might have relied on for years to push aside intrusive darkness each day and night. Depression, OCD and su@3cide ideation— the welcome temporary relief was there but it was also killing you. And it still can pound you into the ground. Luna is a tiny goofy spark of light for me each day. So a pet. A pet and therapy and meds and meetings if that’s your thing and milkshakes and fizzy drinks and sunshine. Let me know what works for you. And as this is Instagram, there are some amazing mental health and recovery accounts to follow. @fightthroughmentalhealth @bekindmentalhealth @theocdtherapist @talkclubuk @fucking_sober @muppet_recovery @obsessivelyeverafter are some of my favorites. #Sobriety #recovery #process #ocd #dryjanuary #hope #desertDogs #Sober #7months
Pets are life. They run and jump and flop around and have no idea what their tiny moments do to our hearts and our hope. Dogs. Cats. Lizards. Doesn’t matter. They are transformative mental health wizards. Today I’m 7 months sober. I’m a newbie still working steps and have so few answers and a long way to go. But I’ve been seeing and talking to a lot of people working dry January and thinking about going year round. If you do, get a pet. When you lose alcohol or drugs, you lose the thing you might have relied on for years to push aside intrusive darkness each day and night. Depression, OCD and su@3cide ideation— the welcome temporary relief was there but it was also killing you. And it still can pound you into the ground. Luna is a tiny goofy spark of light for me each day. So a pet. A pet and therapy and meds and meetings if that’s your thing and milkshakes and fizzy drinks and sunshine. Let me know what works for you. And as this is Instagram, there are some amazing mental health and recovery accounts to follow. @fightthroughmentalhealth @bekindmentalhealth @theocdtherapist @talkclubuk @fucking_sober @muppet_recovery @obsessivelyeverafter are some of my favorites. #Sobriety #recovery #process #ocd #dryjanuary #hope #desertDogs #Sober #7months
Pets are life. They run and jump and flop around and have no idea what their tiny moments do to our hearts and our hope. Dogs. Cats. Lizards. Doesn’t matter. They are transformative mental health wizards. Today I’m 7 months sober. I’m a newbie still working steps and have so few answers and a long way to go. But I’ve been seeing and talking to a lot of people working dry January and thinking about going year round. If you do, get a pet. When you lose alcohol or drugs, you lose the thing you might have relied on for years to push aside intrusive darkness each day and night. Depression, OCD and su@3cide ideation— the welcome temporary relief was there but it was also killing you. And it still can pound you into the ground. Luna is a tiny goofy spark of light for me each day. So a pet. A pet and therapy and meds and meetings if that’s your thing and milkshakes and fizzy drinks and sunshine. Let me know what works for you. And as this is Instagram, there are some amazing mental health and recovery accounts to follow. @fightthroughmentalhealth @bekindmentalhealth @theocdtherapist @talkclubuk @fucking_sober @muppet_recovery @obsessivelyeverafter are some of my favorites. #Sobriety #recovery #process #ocd #dryjanuary #hope #desertDogs #Sober #7months
My mom suffered a massive brain hemorrhage and was rushed to the hospital this weekend. We all grabbed red eye flights to Florida Saturday night for a Mother’s Day visit we should have done anyway but she never wanted any fuss. I’ve written so much about my Dad, but my mom is the rock—always there. Being a den mother for cub scouts. Taking me to Star Wars 10 times in the theaters as a kid. Helping me get into college. Every drs appointment, dentist appointment. Every meal. The things that were just there that I took for granted. And she never ever wanted to be dependent on anyone. I collected these pics and was going to write something about her just always being there and celebrate her amazing hair styles for Mom’s day, especially as we have been bonding over 12 step. But now this. Sitting in her room, praying with the priests and deacons as they come by her bed. Trying to stir up energy in the universe.
My mom suffered a massive brain hemorrhage and was rushed to the hospital this weekend. We all grabbed red eye flights to Florida Saturday night for a Mother’s Day visit we should have done anyway but she never wanted any fuss. I’ve written so much about my Dad, but my mom is the rock—always there. Being a den mother for cub scouts. Taking me to Star Wars 10 times in the theaters as a kid. Helping me get into college. Every drs appointment, dentist appointment. Every meal. The things that were just there that I took for granted. And she never ever wanted to be dependent on anyone. I collected these pics and was going to write something about her just always being there and celebrate her amazing hair styles for Mom’s day, especially as we have been bonding over 12 step. But now this. Sitting in her room, praying with the priests and deacons as they come by her bed. Trying to stir up energy in the universe.
My mom suffered a massive brain hemorrhage and was rushed to the hospital this weekend. We all grabbed red eye flights to Florida Saturday night for a Mother’s Day visit we should have done anyway but she never wanted any fuss. I’ve written so much about my Dad, but my mom is the rock—always there. Being a den mother for cub scouts. Taking me to Star Wars 10 times in the theaters as a kid. Helping me get into college. Every drs appointment, dentist appointment. Every meal. The things that were just there that I took for granted. And she never ever wanted to be dependent on anyone. I collected these pics and was going to write something about her just always being there and celebrate her amazing hair styles for Mom’s day, especially as we have been bonding over 12 step. But now this. Sitting in her room, praying with the priests and deacons as they come by her bed. Trying to stir up energy in the universe.
My mom suffered a massive brain hemorrhage and was rushed to the hospital this weekend. We all grabbed red eye flights to Florida Saturday night for a Mother’s Day visit we should have done anyway but she never wanted any fuss. I’ve written so much about my Dad, but my mom is the rock—always there. Being a den mother for cub scouts. Taking me to Star Wars 10 times in the theaters as a kid. Helping me get into college. Every drs appointment, dentist appointment. Every meal. The things that were just there that I took for granted. And she never ever wanted to be dependent on anyone. I collected these pics and was going to write something about her just always being there and celebrate her amazing hair styles for Mom’s day, especially as we have been bonding over 12 step. But now this. Sitting in her room, praying with the priests and deacons as they come by her bed. Trying to stir up energy in the universe.
My Dad died 24 years ago today. He was 50. I turn 50 in August. Pretty soon I’ll have spent more time on this earth without him than with him. And yet it feels like this picture was taken yesterday. This is us at Disney World. I’m maybe 12. We are at the Contemporary Hotel and he wanted to get Space Mountain and Cinderella’s Castle in the background of the shot from this Polaroid camera selfie. Dad always wanted to get pictures of us together and I could never understand why. I was always like—“but the sunset looks better without us in it.” Now I understand.
Today is my Dad’s birthday. He lived 50 years and 132 days. As of 1pm eastern time today, I have lived 50 years and 132 days. Today is the day I have outlived my father. I didn’t think that would happen. When a parent dies younger, it kind of puts you on a timer, or at least it did me. God has a strange sense of humor to put that day on his birthday. Last year, I was walking down the steps and for a split second I thought “I need to check in with dad.” In that split second, it felt so real, like he was still here. Then I remembered. Grief doesn’t end after year one. It ebbs and flows. And sometimes when you least expect it, you get hit with a wave that almost knocks you out of the f’n boat. Happy Birthday Dad. Wish I was giving you a wallet from Sears today like every year: You fought back demons, could turn any rundown house into a masterpiece with the wave of a brush and always went out of your way to make others happy. Give ‘em a little hell up there or a little heaven down below. #DeadDadsClub #Badddestmotherferinthevalley #grateful #grief #rememberthedead
Today is my Dad’s birthday. He lived 50 years and 132 days. As of 1pm eastern time today, I have lived 50 years and 132 days. Today is the day I have outlived my father. I didn’t think that would happen. When a parent dies younger, it kind of puts you on a timer, or at least it did me. God has a strange sense of humor to put that day on his birthday. Last year, I was walking down the steps and for a split second I thought “I need to check in with dad.” In that split second, it felt so real, like he was still here. Then I remembered. Grief doesn’t end after year one. It ebbs and flows. And sometimes when you least expect it, you get hit with a wave that almost knocks you out of the f’n boat. Happy Birthday Dad. Wish I was giving you a wallet from Sears today like every year: You fought back demons, could turn any rundown house into a masterpiece with the wave of a brush and always went out of your way to make others happy. Give ‘em a little hell up there or a little heaven down below. #DeadDadsClub #Badddestmotherferinthevalley #grateful #grief #rememberthedead
Today is my Dad’s birthday. He lived 50 years and 132 days. As of 1pm eastern time today, I have lived 50 years and 132 days. Today is the day I have outlived my father. I didn’t think that would happen. When a parent dies younger, it kind of puts you on a timer, or at least it did me. God has a strange sense of humor to put that day on his birthday. Last year, I was walking down the steps and for a split second I thought “I need to check in with dad.” In that split second, it felt so real, like he was still here. Then I remembered. Grief doesn’t end after year one. It ebbs and flows. And sometimes when you least expect it, you get hit with a wave that almost knocks you out of the f’n boat. Happy Birthday Dad. Wish I was giving you a wallet from Sears today like every year: You fought back demons, could turn any rundown house into a masterpiece with the wave of a brush and always went out of your way to make others happy. Give ‘em a little hell up there or a little heaven down below. #DeadDadsClub #Badddestmotherferinthevalley #grateful #grief #rememberthedead
A little blue steel, but it only took four tries to tie my tie right, so I’m going with it. CrimeCon 2022. Our Unraveled: Long Island Serial Killer panel was standing room only in the big room, and we had an amazing dinner with the Discovery Plus/Investigation Discovery team. And everyone here is super nice! #crimecon #truecrime
A little blue steel, but it only took four tries to tie my tie right, so I’m going with it. CrimeCon 2022. Our Unraveled: Long Island Serial Killer panel was standing room only in the big room, and we had an amazing dinner with the Discovery Plus/Investigation Discovery team. And everyone here is super nice! #crimecon #truecrime
A little blue steel, but it only took four tries to tie my tie right, so I’m going with it. CrimeCon 2022. Our Unraveled: Long Island Serial Killer panel was standing room only in the big room, and we had an amazing dinner with the Discovery Plus/Investigation Discovery team. And everyone here is super nice! #crimecon #truecrime
A little blue steel, but it only took four tries to tie my tie right, so I’m going with it. CrimeCon 2022. Our Unraveled: Long Island Serial Killer panel was standing room only in the big room, and we had an amazing dinner with the Discovery Plus/Investigation Discovery team. And everyone here is super nice! #crimecon #truecrime
Happy Mother’s Day to the woman who took me to see Star Wars in the theater 10 times and let me dress any way I wanted. Love you, Ma. I think us kids turned out pretty good. I would tag my sisters but they threatened me with death if I tagged them. The 80s weren’t my fault.
Happy Mother’s Day to the woman who took me to see Star Wars in the theater 10 times and let me dress any way I wanted. Love you, Ma. I think us kids turned out pretty good. I would tag my sisters but they threatened me with death if I tagged them. The 80s weren’t my fault.
Happy Mother’s Day to the woman who took me to see Star Wars in the theater 10 times and let me dress any way I wanted. Love you, Ma. I think us kids turned out pretty good. I would tag my sisters but they threatened me with death if I tagged them. The 80s weren’t my fault.
Covid Free Celebration Cocktail! Ten days locked inside, a cocoon of Uber Eats and a lot of crime writing and hockey watching. There are worse ways to spend the time, but I’m happy to be back. Thank you to everyone who sent me kind words.
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Do you have plans tonight? Now you do:—a double dose of true crime investigative TV. Launching tonight on Discovery : “Unraveled: Once a Killer” Alexis and I uncover the most dangerous type of killer out there—the one and done sexual thrill killer. Men who kill in such a manner that every expert thinks he must be a serial offender, but then he blends back into society, never to kill again. It happens way more than you think—And like in our story, the killer might be DJing your kid’s next school dance. THEN: Premiering Tonight at 9/8 on Investigation Discovery–“Unraveled: Toxic Testimony.” If you think you can trust forensic experts in murder trials, this show will open your eyes. David Camm came home from a pickup basketball game to find his entire family murdered. A blood spatter “expert” declared Camm was the killer. He went to jail for years, and you will be yelling at your television set when you find out why. #truecrime #idaddict #forensics
Do you have plans tonight? Now you do:—a double dose of true crime investigative TV. Launching tonight on Discovery : “Unraveled: Once a Killer” Alexis and I uncover the most dangerous type of killer out there—the one and done sexual thrill killer. Men who kill in such a manner that every expert thinks he must be a serial offender, but then he blends back into society, never to kill again. It happens way more than you think—And like in our story, the killer might be DJing your kid’s next school dance. THEN: Premiering Tonight at 9/8 on Investigation Discovery–“Unraveled: Toxic Testimony.” If you think you can trust forensic experts in murder trials, this show will open your eyes. David Camm came home from a pickup basketball game to find his entire family murdered. A blood spatter “expert” declared Camm was the killer. He went to jail for years, and you will be yelling at your television set when you find out why. #truecrime #idaddict #forensics
Do you have plans tonight? Now you do:—a double dose of true crime investigative TV. Launching tonight on Discovery : “Unraveled: Once a Killer” Alexis and I uncover the most dangerous type of killer out there—the one and done sexual thrill killer. Men who kill in such a manner that every expert thinks he must be a serial offender, but then he blends back into society, never to kill again. It happens way more than you think—And like in our story, the killer might be DJing your kid’s next school dance. THEN: Premiering Tonight at 9/8 on Investigation Discovery–“Unraveled: Toxic Testimony.” If you think you can trust forensic experts in murder trials, this show will open your eyes. David Camm came home from a pickup basketball game to find his entire family murdered. A blood spatter “expert” declared Camm was the killer. He went to jail for years, and you will be yelling at your television set when you find out why. #truecrime #idaddict #forensics
