Hello, middle age (god willing) I see you A potential rebirth Start again Reset Take what works, rid of the rest Take the moments Of spontaneous dance Of looking into my child’s eyes Of kissing my husband Of being held And of being alone More free please More of what matters please Rid of the burdens Of the pressure Of the trappings Of appearances Or at least find more truth in what appears Here I am Still breathing In and out and in and out (iykyk) Life has felt like a lot of living hell in recent years Especially this one, especially recent months Details not necessary But still living Finding moments of spontaneous dance To look into my child’s eyes To kiss my husband (tho sadly not nearly enough) That’s something But it’s time for more I’m due for it Living heaven please Discovering a purpose again Allowing discovery My boy looked into my eyes a couple months back during bedtime while snuggling He said to me “Mommy When I turn 40 you’re gonna die” with such calm It shook me My little Scorpio, for sure But also, he’s the most intuitive So it shook me But now I realize If I am so lucky for that to be the truth Then I still have more than half my life to live (or a little less maybe, I think that math is wrong) What a gift that is Just to breathe another day Let alone find moments in it worth living So I intend to make the most of the second half of my life Better than I have the first Get to know myself better Maybe even actually find a way to love myself And my life Wouldn’t that be cool So, an opportunity To keep breathing Dancing To kiss my husband more To be held To hold myself I guess this is 40 I’m not owed any of it, I know It’s up to me, I know *if you care to donate to a cause that you care about in my honor, happy birthday to meeee*
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Seems fitting to break my social media silence with a bday dump to celebrate the life of the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Hbd (a day-or almost 2- late now) to my other half. Life is chock full of ‘dem lemons, but with you, we still makin’ that lemonade somehow. We keep going. We keep fighting. We keep seeing each other. We keep honoring each other. And we keep finding ways to make it precious. I’d do it with no other. I choose you, for keeps @matthewbryanfeld …happy 42. Year of the shark baby. My wish for you is that it is simply the best yet, you are so very deserving. Thank you for being the joy in my life. I love you forever. You are the best thing…. (Side note! I highly recommend fully deleting your socials for a good chunk of time, if you’re anything like me at least…highly recommend. Much love.) Oh and thank you Upstate NY for also being the best thing…!
Red white & blue/fashionista reunion!
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
We pretty much nailed Halloween. 🛸🪩 ************** Definitely only meant to post the opening of the song before the explicit lyrics hit. lol. But damn…
Look at all these beautiful ladiiiiieeeeeesssss!
If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it.
… rusted veins of grain above me the tower of a tree thick with weight but floating horizontally in the sea of the sky and the leaves with their slight rustle singing above it fighting for the spotlight with the clouds that swim by above them without a care in the world in a world that doesn’t feel like it cares anymore or can afford to a small reminder to look up again because it all just keeps going *new space to hold the evidence of my favorite pastime’s, taking photographs writing words, over at @my.leica.and.me if you like this sort of thing*
It’s simply been too long since my hubby has recorded a Christmas song, so I made him. On our too short of a visit, in between shows, with our 5 year old in the room- no tripods- no lights, just a shaky camera woman and the genius of @matthewbryanfeld . I’ve said this before and I’ll say it forever, I could hear you sing every second of my life and it wouldn’t be enough. We really need to make that Christmas album happen, but until then, please just get home for Christmas my love…