O October! Blanket me in auburn leaves and dappled sun. Speak to me in spectral winds and warm spice. Let me be not afraid of the darkness. Let me welcome the unknown to my hearth as an old friend and take its hand. Let the whispering ghosts both ancient and new come to greet me. I am a wandering spirit just like you. 🕸⚰️🖤🎃 •photos: @susieq• •hair/makeup: @blondiewoodbeauty• •clothing/location: @michelinepitt @la_femme_en_noir_•
Hi. I’m making my directorial debut in my new short film Sisters and you can help! I’m so excited to bring this story to life. Link in my bio ♥️ many thanks to @cheesynuggets @sophiacacciola @michaeljepstein for their help filming and editing this video!
such a fun day modeling for the new @la_femme_en_noir_ Dark Romance collection. thank you for having me @michelinepitt 🖤 hair and makeup by: @cassierussek and @alyssamarieartistry
proof of life/farewell to my extensions
owls (especially the majestic, noble, sacred, omniscient barn owl) have been a core part of my personality for most of my life and this was a dream come TRUE
𝒢𝒽ℴ𝓈𝓉𝓈 𝒶𝓇ℯ 𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓁. 𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽, ℐ 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌. There are things that tie them to a place, very much like they do to us. Some remain tethered to a patch of land, a time and date, the spilling of blood, a terrible crime… There are others, others that hold onto an emotion, a drive, loss, revenge, or love. Those, they never go away. 🩸
love y’all.
Part Four: Acceptance How do we heal? After we escape the siren song of self-loathing and dare to choose ourselves, how do we “handle the seasons of our lives?” A friend and I were talking recently about the unknowable, mysterious flow of life and how our attempts to bend it to our will only bring more pain and heartache. When I was young, acceptance was seen as defeat or laziness or an excuse to be easy on myself. We were always to be striving to be like Christ, even with the knowledge that we would never reach that goal in this lifetime. After leaving the church, I struggled with how to make peace with myself and others. How can I love myself as I am while also being committed to growth? If I don’t have to be god-like, if I don’t have to shame myself for my humanity, what are my standards of goodness? That’s when I came across the concept of radical acceptance. It’s a tool that is often used in therapy for survivors of trauma/PTSD. The gist of it is that denial or resistance of what hurts or scares us only prolongs suffering. We must accept that the past is unchangeable but we as human beings are not beyond saving. The only way to move forward is to engage with the present, to believe our histories do not define us. We look the scary truths in the eye and say “I see you. I know you are here. I can no longer leave you to fester and I will bring you into the light instead. You do not have to define me.” It has changed the way I talk to myself. It has changed the way I view others. Instead of being seduced by binary thinking, categorizing people into good or evil, participating in wholesale condemnation, I am better able to see myself, others and life itself in its fullness. It is difficult to live in that nuance. It will mean recognizing the weakness present in all humans, no matter how evolved or progressive or compassionate we are. It also means giving grace when grace is difficult to give. I’m sure it is work I will be doing for the rest of my life and I know it will be worth it.
this is literally me
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
Farewell to La Cage. No idea how to summarize this experience, only to say that I’m so grateful that my first foray into professional theatre was so full of love, joy, and acceptance. Every day was fun, every person was kind. What a gift! Thank you so so much @pamstinkleton @ani.taj and @ryantymensky for bringing me into your beautiful, bright, wacky world. (I love theatre!! I want to do more! Hello world, I want to do more theatre!!!) To my beloved castmates: oh wow, I miss you already! The warmth and generosity y’all showed me meant the world. I loved watching you perform every night, I loved hearing your laughter and singing in the green room. I loved being surrounded by so many beautiful queer people and feeling more at home than I have in a long time. It was such a privilege to spend time with you all. I love you all and I love one of you the most. Life’s not worth a damn til you can say “Hey world, I am what I am.” And I’m freer to do that now than ever before. Grateful.
I am THRILLED to finally announce that I will be joining this incredible cast in LA CAGE AUX FOLLES at The Pasadena Playhouse! Before I started acting on camera, I fell in love with theatre and especially musical theatre. It’s genuinely an honor to get to perform alongside such talented actors and I hope you will come out and see us because it’s gonna be a gay old time!!! 🩷💜💙
tarot wisdom for today felt hesitant to post this because I know that nothing I’m saying is particularly new information, but I think if it encourages anyone to take action, to move past indoctrination and into empathy, or to speak up against the injustices we’re witnessing, it’s worth it. 🌊👑 The King of Cups 👑🌊 In stark contrast to the cruel and corrupt leadership of today, the King of Cards shows us a better way to lead and encourages us to step up to the plate in our own, individual lives. I believe many of us are feeling tossed around by the intensity of the moment. We should not run from or numb these feelings, but instead of allowing ourselves to flounder, we can use the energy and motivation to take strong, decisive action. In a patriarchal society that encourages us to divorce emotions from our decision making, The King of Cups tells us that leading with empathy is the only real way to make positive change. Our feelings of fear, betrayal, sorrow, and grief are what will prompt us to envision and fight for a better future. It is a gift to care. An aching heart is an alive heart. Let’s put those aches into action. I highly encourage you to take heart-led action. Call your reps. Have hard conversations. Donate to organizations on the ground. Support your most vulnerable community members. Make your feelings known.
I wrote this a couple years ago when I was feeling extremely disassociated- less like a human being and more like an abandoned church. Anyway, I’ve been meaning to make it into song and I’m sure I will eventually, but I felt like sharing it today. Will it stay up? Maybe.
I wrote this a couple years ago when I was feeling extremely disassociated- less like a human being and more like an abandoned church. Anyway, I’ve been meaning to make it into song and I’m sure I will eventually, but I felt like sharing it today. Will it stay up? Maybe.
I wrote this a couple years ago when I was feeling extremely disassociated- less like a human being and more like an abandoned church. Anyway, I’ve been meaning to make it into song and I’m sure I will eventually, but I felt like sharing it today. Will it stay up? Maybe.
🌿 Bog Man is officially out and available to stream!🌿 This song was literally inspired by a meme sent to me by a friend and it has evolved into something I’m really proud of. I hope you enjoy. 🤍 This song could not exist without the help of some incredibly talented friends and musicians: Co-Producers: Jack Mullin (@youdontknowjack__ ) and Hugh Macdonald (@fairhazel_) Mixing: Jack Mullin Strings: Godfrey Furchtgott (@godfreyyy) Mastered by: Edsel Holden (@edselholden) lyrics and vocals by me 🙂
Some video shout outs!!! Every single dollar you’ve given to Sisters helps my incredible team and I bring this story to life. Thank you! There are more perks available at the link in my bio!
with the help of some amazing friends, I am thrilled to announce that my new song Bog Man will be available on 7/26 🌿🍂
