and I stand by the fact that explicit attacks relating to identity are about cruelty and bullying which cannot be excused on the basis of education and background. this is a part of a much longer video which was originally 6 minutes on TT. but the way in which these issues are approached on social media by people who have been ‘canceled’ is ridiculous to me. there are some people who get way more vitriol on much less substantial issues and others who cry in front of the camera blaming their family and hometown for instances that are substantially worse. I don’t really care about cancellations bc honestly I don’t want to watch or affiliate with people who have those kinds of histories and only saw reason for change when called out on a public platform. you’re an adult, everyday you have an opportunity to be better. I think the only real accountability when it comes to cruelty in the form of oppressive language is to hold oneself accountable for the behavior and what it’s intent was (which even on the basis of trying to fit in/everyone does it) is STILL groupthink oppressive behavior which is the root in the first place. and to make a genuine effort to not only educate oneself but to BE a better person – showing up for communities, diversifying the people around you, not being a bystander. the result of language like this is not just a stupid, uneducated mistake you make as a kid. It is in fact, not normal, to have a history of this. and the amount of kids who struggle with self expression, confidence, and self worth bc of this is appalling. I think it’s the responsibility of us as individuals to more than anything, speak up when something is wrong and to correct this behavior/teach actual kindness as young as possible. because one ‘mistake’ from children leads to other children having to unlearn the cruelty from their childhoods and recover their self identity as adults. one of the best things you can do as someone with a voice and morals is to educate and empower other generations in raising theirs.
last year, on my birthday *november 10th* I felt this intuitive pull that something needed to dramatically change. I felt completely beaten down and hopeless. As someone made of hope and fight, it was like I could barely even face myself in the mirror out of shame (weird bc most of what I was upset about were things out of my control?) I think it’s easier to blame myself than external things/people because one can really only control themselves and I was stuck in a relationship of punishment with myself but that’s exactly what is expected of women. And I hate to be predictable. So out of defiance, insanity, whatever tf, I bought a one way ticket to France to begin writing a novel which has been the earliest dream of mine I can remember. anyways, these are just snippets lmao and there’s a lot left out but this is a bit of the first half of my creative resurrection year. It was CRAZY to read back on my thoughts and feelings bc they feel so foreign to me, especially with all of the amazing, complicated, difficult, gorgeously inspirational things that have happened. it’s especially surprising bc who i was then thought future me would hate her for not being as on top of it or productive as possible but i just feel sympathy and love for someone who was clearly trying their best to survive and hold onto themself. I could say a lot more but honestly I’m proud of myself🫧 @kathrinegulla took these pictures of me in an apartment in the marais, thank you🥹💗💗💗
last year, on my birthday *november 10th* I felt this intuitive pull that something needed to dramatically change. I felt completely beaten down and hopeless. As someone made of hope and fight, it was like I could barely even face myself in the mirror out of shame (weird bc most of what I was upset about were things out of my control?) I think it’s easier to blame myself than external things/people because one can really only control themselves and I was stuck in a relationship of punishment with myself but that’s exactly what is expected of women. And I hate to be predictable. So out of defiance, insanity, whatever tf, I bought a one way ticket to France to begin writing a novel which has been the earliest dream of mine I can remember. anyways, these are just snippets lmao and there’s a lot left out but this is a bit of the first half of my creative resurrection year. It was CRAZY to read back on my thoughts and feelings bc they feel so foreign to me, especially with all of the amazing, complicated, difficult, gorgeously inspirational things that have happened. it’s especially surprising bc who i was then thought future me would hate her for not being as on top of it or productive as possible but i just feel sympathy and love for someone who was clearly trying their best to survive and hold onto themself. I could say a lot more but honestly I’m proud of myself🫧 @kathrinegulla took these pictures of me in an apartment in the marais, thank you🥹💗💗💗
last year, on my birthday *november 10th* I felt this intuitive pull that something needed to dramatically change. I felt completely beaten down and hopeless. As someone made of hope and fight, it was like I could barely even face myself in the mirror out of shame (weird bc most of what I was upset about were things out of my control?) I think it’s easier to blame myself than external things/people because one can really only control themselves and I was stuck in a relationship of punishment with myself but that’s exactly what is expected of women. And I hate to be predictable. So out of defiance, insanity, whatever tf, I bought a one way ticket to France to begin writing a novel which has been the earliest dream of mine I can remember. anyways, these are just snippets lmao and there’s a lot left out but this is a bit of the first half of my creative resurrection year. It was CRAZY to read back on my thoughts and feelings bc they feel so foreign to me, especially with all of the amazing, complicated, difficult, gorgeously inspirational things that have happened. it’s especially surprising bc who i was then thought future me would hate her for not being as on top of it or productive as possible but i just feel sympathy and love for someone who was clearly trying their best to survive and hold onto themself. I could say a lot more but honestly I’m proud of myself🫧 @kathrinegulla took these pictures of me in an apartment in the marais, thank you🥹💗💗💗
last year, on my birthday *november 10th* I felt this intuitive pull that something needed to dramatically change. I felt completely beaten down and hopeless. As someone made of hope and fight, it was like I could barely even face myself in the mirror out of shame (weird bc most of what I was upset about were things out of my control?) I think it’s easier to blame myself than external things/people because one can really only control themselves and I was stuck in a relationship of punishment with myself but that’s exactly what is expected of women. And I hate to be predictable. So out of defiance, insanity, whatever tf, I bought a one way ticket to France to begin writing a novel which has been the earliest dream of mine I can remember. anyways, these are just snippets lmao and there’s a lot left out but this is a bit of the first half of my creative resurrection year. It was CRAZY to read back on my thoughts and feelings bc they feel so foreign to me, especially with all of the amazing, complicated, difficult, gorgeously inspirational things that have happened. it’s especially surprising bc who i was then thought future me would hate her for not being as on top of it or productive as possible but i just feel sympathy and love for someone who was clearly trying their best to survive and hold onto themself. I could say a lot more but honestly I’m proud of myself🫧 @kathrinegulla took these pictures of me in an apartment in the marais, thank you🥹💗💗💗
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
muses in the museum yearning for love long gone
to not love her is to reject the most tender and raw parts of yourself
was a ✨bit✨ heartbroken and took a 3 hour bus ride to La Ciotat from Paris to sit by the sea and read love stories🏹 but seriously sometimes what makes love the hardest is when you stand in your own way of it!!!! knowing the difference between love that breaks you down and love that breaks you open is so important💘 🌙 books, dating, journaling
ah Persephone, my goddess of spring and queen of the underworld🌹🥀 (and yes, the majority of my hairstyles are just braiding and updos with flowers inspired by fiction/mythology✋🏾)
ask me how many books I’ve read in Paris about secondly, women tortured by love but firstly, tortured by themselves
day in my life as a writer in Paris<3
spending your twenties in Paris as a writer consists of making art at cafes followed by very random events like a sausage and song party😭 🧚🏾♀️ also this is one of my fave cafes in montmartre @lesaintjean_montmartre