Rain Dove Dubilewski Instagram – I hadn’t posted on IG in a while because I’d been struggling emotionally. Not typically a New Years Resolution person, however this year mine was to choose to exist everyday of 2023. Really proud to say I’m still here and working through it. ❤️ Lost a lot this year, risked a lot this year, and experienced a lot of hard knocks. From loss of loved ones via cancer to war to love- I thought I was good at compartmentalizing things that didn’t turn out well. It was a superpower I had obtained from living on the streets and moving about so much. Turns out, when I finally had a moment to sit still something happened that I wasn’t expecting. In the situation of survival which requires fight, flight, or freeze- I tend to friend. When You don’t feel good- do good. But I found myself in the peculiar situation where I didn’t DO at all. I froze. FREEZE.
See- I had kept myself busy busy busy working on any causes and issues but my own. I became an excellent coach and horrible player. Poured my soul into the souls of others and found value in providing value. When value should’ve already been felt regardless. Able to navigate others through chaos and unable to even breathe in the direction of my own. A lot of hard lessons were learned. A lot of growth I felt unprepared for was suddenly demanded. So. I froze. Pause. Process. The flood that occurred of all the tears uncried and all the personal needs neglected suffocated and seemed impossible to gasp through. The grief and grit. Every single day of 2023 has been a choice I made to be here. Here I am.
After a 30 day detox from the mainfeed, I’m now ready to return with 12 new pieces of content created with the incredible @sareh.ovey – an Iranian refugee who was forced to flee Iran after photographing some clients without their hijabs. Massively talented human, Sareh now lives in Turkey and is working to resettle life. If anyone likes Sareh’s work and is interested in a Collab, Sareh can shoot, edit, and do all the design for photos videos. A goal this year is to get Sareh an opp to shoot with @milanfashionweek – as they have pledged towards integrating global change initiatives.
#LGBTQIA #activism #lovewins #stillhere | Posted on 31/Jan/2023 23:07:21
