4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
4 years sober soon. Whenever I reflect on my sobriety i always think of Mac. I still can’t believe addiction took him from us. I wish it hadn’t. I wish he were still here, his overdose keeps sobriety into perspective when I’m really struggling with relapse triggers. Life is precious and worth being healthy and present for. That fact doesn’t always compensate the reality of Life not being easy to exist in and understand. I do think it’s natural to desire escapism when the intensity of life feels unbearable. But poisoning ourselves for the sake of not feeling isn’t the answer.. who knows what the future holds for me as far as my relationship with alcohol goes.. i do miss drinking I don’t miss the blacks outs or the chaos or shame that always came with it. I really do romanticize the idea of me working up the tolerance and self control to drink responsibly Im also completely aware those thoughts are delusional I’ll never be a responsible drinker I wasn’t meant to be . I’m an addict in active sobriety and I hope I’m able to keep choosing this. I hope!
@thefloridaproject is back on Netflix ❤️ reflecting on that time fills my heart with so much gratitude @bakermovies seriously took a risk casting me for the role of Ashley on that scale of film especially having never acted before (wild!) it’s what makes him genius and unique and stand apart from other directors who believe that only attaching big name celebrities will get a film financed or recognized, he never compromised his vision! true artistry! Forever inspired forever grateful .Thank you for seeing and believing in me Sean ❤️
#thefloridaproject
@thefloridaproject is back on Netflix ❤️ reflecting on that time fills my heart with so much gratitude @bakermovies seriously took a risk casting me for the role of Ashley on that scale of film especially having never acted before (wild!) it’s what makes him genius and unique and stand apart from other directors who believe that only attaching big name celebrities will get a film financed or recognized, he never compromised his vision! true artistry! Forever inspired forever grateful .Thank you for seeing and believing in me Sean ❤️
#thefloridaproject
@thefloridaproject is back on Netflix ❤️ reflecting on that time fills my heart with so much gratitude @bakermovies seriously took a risk casting me for the role of Ashley on that scale of film especially having never acted before (wild!) it’s what makes him genius and unique and stand apart from other directors who believe that only attaching big name celebrities will get a film financed or recognized, he never compromised his vision! true artistry! Forever inspired forever grateful .Thank you for seeing and believing in me Sean ❤️
#thefloridaproject
@thefloridaproject is back on Netflix ❤️ reflecting on that time fills my heart with so much gratitude @bakermovies seriously took a risk casting me for the role of Ashley on that scale of film especially having never acted before (wild!) it’s what makes him genius and unique and stand apart from other directors who believe that only attaching big name celebrities will get a film financed or recognized, he never compromised his vision! true artistry! Forever inspired forever grateful .Thank you for seeing and believing in me Sean ❤️
#thefloridaproject
Today is a day of land acknowledgment, today is a day to recognize respect and support indigenous people. Today is a day to talk about native history, communities, families and their ancestral homeland. In the US the history Americans have been taught is rooted in lies, we’ve proclaimed colonizers our national heroes and founding fathers. We celebrate and honor the lie . We commemorate colonizers for the slaughtering of the indigenous people of this land. Thanksgiving for natives is a national day of mourning. In the climate of this new world we can no longer tolerate or pass down the lies of history. Let’s honor the ancestors by speaking truth. Please remember what a blessing and privilege it is to experience love family food and warmth today when the reality of the world is so heavy and painful. We have collectively experienced immense grief heartbreak and trauma watching our global brothers and sisters suffer. But we’ve also collectively woken up come together stand in solidarity for freedom of all. We’re searching deeper we’re asking questions we’re speaking up we’re making a stand and that’s worth highlighting. That’s what I’m grateful for.
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
Borikuas in the NYC diaspora. My family, Flatbush Brooklyn in the 70s/80s. plastic on the couch , menudo merch , church and family gatherings the girl that looks like my daughter amethyst is my mom and I’m shook because I basically gave birth to my mom. My Grammy and welo 🥹 so beautiful 🫶🇵🇷🗽 #nuyoricua #diaspora
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it’s been challenging to navigate my feelings about speaking on my experience as a non white woman in this predominantly white industry. I have a huge problem with white people in the industry reaping the benefits of having access to our spaces when they repeatedly and continuously steal from us. Bob is some where saying “stealing?” “stole what?” When you entered our neighborhoods communities practices culture and experienced something you never knew existed Bob! Something that excited you so much you went home got on your laptop and wrote a script , treatment , song , book using our experience but not from the perspective of a witness.. from the perspective of a person from that world. It’s beyond appropriation it’s New age colonization! Those fuckers always get away with it because of their privilege and access, they know people who will happily fund a film commercial campaign telling a story that is NOT THEIRS! They go on to win awards proclaimed genius welcomed into elite spaces amongst the wealthy and successful, people who with one call can change a life completely for the better meanwhile those who are the direct source of their “creative genius” are left behind disregarded and forgotten! That’s how they steal and get rich on our backs! The way this country and the systems within this country are set up have never been for people of color to thrive and succeed with ease. Ever! Why is it a breeze for bob but a fight for Juan to accomplish the same goal?! So many times Ive had friends in the industry call me to say I was on a directors mood board for a massive campaign.all white production. But I was never contacted for the opportunity? Why is that? They use me for inspiration but give the opportunity to someone famous and more marketable. Ive never had an agent/manager in my career so many times I’ve reached out to my white connections in the industry to help find representation I’m always met with the same gate keeping response. I’m tired of sweeping the truth under the rug people need to feel uncomfortable and start taking accountability. We are NOT YOUR MUSE! PAY US FOR OUR ENERGY TALENT CREATIVITY STORIES AND TIME!
it’s been challenging to navigate my feelings about speaking on my experience as a non white woman in this predominantly white industry. I have a huge problem with white people in the industry reaping the benefits of having access to our spaces when they repeatedly and continuously steal from us. Bob is some where saying “stealing?” “stole what?” When you entered our neighborhoods communities practices culture and experienced something you never knew existed Bob! Something that excited you so much you went home got on your laptop and wrote a script , treatment , song , book using our experience but not from the perspective of a witness.. from the perspective of a person from that world. It’s beyond appropriation it’s New age colonization! Those fuckers always get away with it because of their privilege and access, they know people who will happily fund a film commercial campaign telling a story that is NOT THEIRS! They go on to win awards proclaimed genius welcomed into elite spaces amongst the wealthy and successful, people who with one call can change a life completely for the better meanwhile those who are the direct source of their “creative genius” are left behind disregarded and forgotten! That’s how they steal and get rich on our backs! The way this country and the systems within this country are set up have never been for people of color to thrive and succeed with ease. Ever! Why is it a breeze for bob but a fight for Juan to accomplish the same goal?! So many times Ive had friends in the industry call me to say I was on a directors mood board for a massive campaign.all white production. But I was never contacted for the opportunity? Why is that? They use me for inspiration but give the opportunity to someone famous and more marketable. Ive never had an agent/manager in my career so many times I’ve reached out to my white connections in the industry to help find representation I’m always met with the same gate keeping response. I’m tired of sweeping the truth under the rug people need to feel uncomfortable and start taking accountability. We are NOT YOUR MUSE! PAY US FOR OUR ENERGY TALENT CREATIVITY STORIES AND TIME!
