If you’re in the Central NJ area and feel compelled, come out to Bae Lea Park in Toms River for a fun little pickleball tournament and support this girl right here! 10am start! Yup, now you know exactly where I will be tomorrow 🤣😅
Rain rain go away…I just want to play pickleball today. 😂
Shabbat Shalom! We made it through another week! I’ve made so many realizations this week. But I can’t seem to get them to stick or put them to practice. It’s SO annoying! It’s like every day I wake up I become a new person, you live and you learn, but then I wake up the next day and have to start all over again. Can’t describe it. Have a great weekend!
Kind of how I felt all weekend. *deer in headlights*. That’s how my soul feels when I’m not observant. Some people in my life tell me that I talk to much about my faith on IG these days but my faith is my life. It gets me through eveyr day and takes me on physical and spiritual journeys throughout each day, making the mundane meaningful. I had a horribly unobserved shabbos this week and I can feel my soul paying the price. It’s like my spiritual eyes closed just a little bit; like a little light goes out inside. If anyone else can relate, please chime in. Passover is also this week and I’m concerned I won’t be observant enough. On another note, I have an obsessive personality and am currently foregoing most work days to be available for as much pickleball as humanly possible.
Shavua Tov!!! Back on the Pickleball courts tomorrow for a little “Dinko” De Mayo tournmant in Hillsboro, NJ! Not expecting much, just a great time!! @the_pickle_jar_nj
Leaning into the week like….is that a pickleball court over there?
Me when I don’t have pickleball. Should I change my handle to “PickleBallChickie”? 🤣😅
I hope your day is as silly as this photo 🙂
What does “adaptable” mean to you? Today isn’t going according to plan and I did not feel very open to being malleable and adaptable as the day goes on. I started off open and receptive and then I feel like I got closed off and irritable and I’m not thrilled with myself. And it’s only 10:48am. Hopefully tomorrow is a new day.
I’m so disappointed in myself. I knowingly ordered non Kosher sushi for dinner last night and ate it. On passover of all times. I thought I could justify it being fish and rice and vegetables but the longer I live the more my soul craves being observant and the more I realize it’s for the good of my soul and my soul definitely pays the price when I act outside the laws of Torah. It’s like my soul mourns and hashem mourns with me when I make choices that aren’t Jewish. I know this sounds like I wish this level of observance on all my Jewish friends and followers, and in a way I do. I cant describe the difference I feel from before and after its like I came alive. Truly alive. I have also been through so much over the last 5 years so I am incredibly grateful to Hashem for bringing me out if the darkness and I do this to honor Hashem and all Hashem has done for me but at the same time…we all have our own story and Journey and no way is wrong. I am just incredibly hard on myself because I can’t justify my life without recognizing Hashems presence and hand in it all. Basically, I’m paying the price today for my actions yesterday. I feel sad and empty. It takes time for this feeling to pass. It makes me want to lay in bed all day. It’s almost worth the price for the light and joy I feel on the other side of it all.
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The problem with me not observing Shabbos, albeit no one knows except me and Hashem (but thats the point, isnt it?) means I’ll wake up the next day and I don’t feel like this girl. I will feel a bit emptier than I was when the week ended. A bit less in control and focused. And what a great week it was. It’s like I’m not stopping and honoring Hashem for all Hashem has done for me and taking a moment to slow down and prepare for the next week ahead. I hope I can pull it together for my pickleball tournament today. 🙏
Have a goofy day! Do one thing you’ve never done before and let me know what that is!
Have a Happy Day! Wait, I mean, I hope you have a day that goes according to plan!!! Feelings are constantly flowing ans changing but I hope you have a pleasant day filled with pleasant moments!
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Tell me one new thing you tried this week 🙂
Looking at the weekend like……another pickleball tournament in Montclair on Sunday! Maybe we won’t come in 5 out of 6 🤣😅🙃 What are your weekend plans?
Passover starts tonight and yesterday I found myself thinking if, as a Jewish person, I am doing enough. I know that’s kind of silly, as I’ve sat at almost 34 seders in my life before ever realizing that the Torah is not just a made up book of stories, but the Truth of Hashem and Hashems miracles and wonders and incredible presence in this world, but I dont always “human” well and I’m constantly playing my actions and words over and over in my head, making sure that everything I do, every interaction I have goes “perfectly”. Even though I know there is no such thing. Those two things don’t necessarily go together but I’m aware that my Jewish ancestors went through so much for me to be where I am today..to have the life I have and the life I get to live, with my incredible family, so to be welcomed to the table feels like a big deal. And of course, no matter what level of observance you are, you are enough…you were always enough..nothing can change that…I dont know why I don’t always see that for myself. So many of you say to give myself grace, and some days I do..and I can..and some days I just feel like I’m not doing enough as a person on this planet. It’s just such a stark realization, that Hashem CREATED you. Like…wow!!! And to be alive now. It’s beautiful. Your soul and body were always meant to be here on the day Hashem decided the world could t exist without you. Anyway, I’m rambling. I just hope that wherever you are tonight, you stay present for the moment and find yourself with a smile.on your face. To all who observe, have a joyous Passover. 😊
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The peace I feel when I have pickleball all day. Yes, I’m addicted.
Have a great Memorial Day Weekend! 🇺🇲 Thank you to all who served snd continue to serve to preserve our freedom.
